Hi everyone,
We are just about ready to start the treatment for Week 8 (on Thur) and I don't feel ready at all. I have been sick in bed or on the recliner every day since the last treatment on Dec 18th with just a few hours here and there where I felt even close to normal. I am really worn out and run down and now Week 8 is upon me! I do have the option of backing off on the dosage this week and just going with a ¾ strength dose, but I feel that this is cheating the system and I am not getting the full benefit of the chemo. On the other hand I am sure that the next 2 weeks will be absolutely brutal if I take the full dosage. As of today I don't know which way to go but I am leaning to taking the full dose and seeing what the next 2 weeks are like and then adjusting it at that point. At least I will be 9 weeks in of the 12 week program which is 75%.
I have worked out a deal with my boss where I am not going to go on disability unless I absolutely have to. He has given me some little special projects that don't require much effort so that I can stay on full pay. He has taken all my other normal tasks and spread them around to others on our team. I certainly am blessed to have him as a boss but even with his help I know I will hit disability at some point. My plan is to go as long as I can and then take the 6 weeks at full pay to recover. So if I finish up the chemo in Feb, I might just take a 6 week vacation after that. I would get full pay and I would not have to work. It would be a good recovery time and hopefully Carol and I could go sit on a beach somewhere and relax.
Anyway, this is all in the future, right now I am focusing on the next two weeks. Please keep us in your prayers, its going to be very tough.
Peace and Love
John
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