A major struggle this time

Hi everyone

(Here is a Hershey’s Christmas tree ornament from GMAJO!!) Thanks GMAJO!!

Also a picture of Carol showing off some new earrings!!

Merry Christmas to you all, I hope everyone had a great holiday! Me, not so much I’m afraid. This time I had totally atypical week. First I got the chemo last Friday and I was sick through Tues as expected. I started to climb out of it on Wed when “BAM!!” it hit me again. It was almost like someone snuck in the house and slipped me another treatment. But this one was worse. I was so sick yesterday that I barely remember the day. I was in bed most of the time and pretty much incoherent on the recliner the rest of the time. I am so nauseous, I have mouth sores that won't quit and I am dizzy and not with it at all.

 

I’m taking my meds and they help but they also put me out of commission so I have been out of it for over  a week now without being able to work or do much of anything else.

I fully expect to go on disability starting the first of the year, or at least, I will modify my schedule significantly. My boss is  trying to do anything he can to keep me off disability but I am not sure it’s the right thing for me to do any work right now, even if it would keep my take home higher..its not about the money right now, its about surviving the chemo and I don't know if I can do both.

More to come on that.

 

For all you family and friends who I said I would call, you are still on my list and in my heart, I just cannot handle it right now. Please keep us in your prayers, we are in the home stretch and its very difficult for both of us.

 

This week we are having treatment #8 a day early (on NY EVE) because of the holiday. I can't wait! What a thing to look forward to for the start of the year. If you can't tell, I am a bit depressed about the whole thing right now, but that will go away too.

Take care everyone and we will catch up with you in 2010!

Peace and Love

John